To my children ~
I’m sorry that I yelled at you both this morning. I’m sorry that I was so impatient.
I’m so sorry that I rushed you off to bed last night because mommy was tired and just wanted to relax for a little while.
I’m sorry for all the time I spend on my cell phone, the computer, and otherwise distracted from being with you.
I’m sorry for every time that I missed out on an opportunity for play that would have led to a hug, a ‘mooch,’ a ‘nuggle, or a tickle fest because there was just “too much to do around here.”
I’m sorry that I’ve been distant and stressed and impatient this past year.
I’m so sorry that mommy & daddy’s choices and struggles in life are going to impact your life during such important years.
I’m so sorry that I haven’t been the mommy I should, and can, be.
Today I pledge….
I pledge to be here with you, for you. Every day. I may have to work all day and send you to daycare, but once you come home, I will be with you and only you. Not the dishes, not the lunches, not my phone. With YOU. Laundry and dishes can be done after you go to bed. Those few hours I have with you will be spent with you, loving you and learning from you.
I pledge to have more fun things for us to do together. Fewer movies, more arts and crafts. More snuggles and make believe.
I pledge to be more patient.
I pledge to yell less and talk more.
I pledge to continue working on getting the help that I need in order to be the best mommy to you that I can be. I can’t do it alone, and I am working on the help that will make me be a better person and a better mommy.
I pledge to hug it out. Always.
I pledge to do everything I can to make your childhood full of love and hope and dreams.
I pledge to continue to love you both with all of my being. You are the only ones who know what my heart sounds like from the inside, and my love for you is endless.